DEAR META AFTER NOTHING WENT RIGHT FOR US MARRIED AND WE GOT A DIVORCED AND I HAD ALL THIS TIME TO THINK DEEPLY ABOUT EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED WHEN WE LOVED EACH OTHER AND I REALIZED THAT I HAD NOT GROWN UP AND I WAS USING U AS A MOTHER FIGURE AND U SLIPPED INTO A CHILD CONSCIOUSNESS AND I SUPPOSE THAT IS MY FAULT AND THEN MY MOTHER WHO WE BOTH KNOW ALWAYS HATED U WAS SO HAPPY IT DIDNT WORK OUT AND SHE BECAME SO NICE TO ME AND ACTUALLY CAME THRU WITH THE KIND OF SUPPORT I NEEDED TO BECOME A WHOLE PERSON SHE LEFT ME ALONE AND NOW SHE ONLY BECOMES A PSYCHO LUNATIC IF I SAY I STILL HAVE FEELINGS FOR U OTHER THAN THAT SHE IS A NICE PERSON ANYWAY I JUST NEEDED U TO KNOW THAT I WENT THRU BEING MAD AT YOU FOR REVERTING BACK INTO A SOUTHERN BELLE FAIRYTALE PRINCESS WHEN I NEEDED A JAMICAN FIVE JOB BLACK WOMAN ANYWAY IF MY CRAZY MOTHER OR MY STEP BROTHER WHO HATES U DONT CATCH ON THAT I STILL THINK ABOUT U AND LOVE U THEN MAYBE I WILL WRITE U AGAIN BUT IF THEY FIND OUT U WILL KNOW BECAUSE I WONT BE ABLE TO COMMUNICATE TO U AND ITS NOT BECAUSE I AM NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO DEAL WITH THEM ITS JUST THAT I AM TRYING TO LIVE A PEACEFUL EXISTENCE BECAUSE THE WORLD IS REAL FUCKED UP SO OK THATS PRETTY MUCH WHATS GOING ON LOVE U MUCH META AND THAT DOESNT MEAN I WANT TO GET BACK WITH YOU IT JUST MEANS THAT I WANT U TO BE HAPPY OK? LOVE PEIRKAM PS MAYBE IF I WRITE U AGAIN I WILL USE A CODE NAME JUST IN CASE...